I feel I'd like to know myself better,
“I felt attracted by the divine light of my heart,” but now, I want, I desire, “to dive and swim in the divine light of my heart” – Ashram India - Kanha Shanti Vanam.
So, I left my city and decided to travel the world.
I am nothing
I shall never be anything
I cannot want to be anything.
Aside from that, I have all the dreams in the world.
Álvaro de Campos, Tobacco shop.
Letter to God
“Dear God,
I love you so much. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for my existence, the food I eat every day, the water, my house and my privacy. Thanks for my family and the courage and strength you have given me to live my life. I have a life! I am grateful! I’m beautiful, and I feel good in my body.
I work as a head housekeeper in a hotel in Scotland. I am autonomous and independent! I work honestly. I can save money. The hotel provides accommodation for its employees.
It’s the first time I’m working abroad, and I came all by myself. I’ve been here for about two months now. There are several young people working in the hotel. They are friendly and they have made me feel welcomed. There are numerous Scots and also many people from other European countries. The area around the hotel is very beautiful as it is surrounded by nature, and there are mountains and waterfalls everywhere. This island seems to have been painted by God! What a beauty! I can go for many walks here, and I’ve been doing a lot of hiking. I work a lot, but luckily my colleagues are there to help me.
Also… since I left home, I’ve felt a pain in my chest, and I don’t think it’s for “missing my home, my family and friends”, a Saudade. I don’t know what it is. I can’t bear this pain any longer. It is a violent thing that I am not able to identify or overcome. I’m really surprised by this emotion! I have never felt this way!
I would like to talk with you about my emotions:
God, how could I recognize and accept my emotions and feelings? And how could I become more empathetic, not only with me but also with other people?
Sometimes I feel like I want to cry but I just can’t do it, and sometimes I want to laugh but I can’t do it either.
Sometimes I don’t even know if the emotion is mine or someone else’s!?!
I also feel like I'm missing something.
However, just as I feel this unbearable pain, I also feel hope, which is weird! This island gives me hope. What a beautiful island!
My God, thank you for reminding me that I have emotions and that I can always improve myself as a person! I think that, for the first time, I look at myself wanting to improve and not just to judge. What a miracle! What are the solutions for my development here on the Isle of Skye?
What can I do to become a better professional?
What can I do to make friends?
How can I manage my finances to save as much money as possible?
I am going to try to focus on the present (and enjoy it), learn what I can learn here, and improve my English.
God, protect me, correct me and show me the best path for my evolution.
I want to live my dreams, become a "winner" in life, do good things in the world, learn from others and teach them what I have learned!
Please God, bless and protect my Guardian Angel, my family, my friends, my colleagues and myself.
I would like to get to know my Guardian Angel. Is it fine?
Please God,
Bless and comfort all the people who have made a difficult decision today. I support their decision!
Bless, and bring peace and love to all world leaders, heal their hearts, surround them, with angels of forgiveness and unconditional love, to guide them to follow the path of love.
I wish that only what comes from you reaches me and my family. Give us wisdom and a grateful heart.
Thanks for hearing my prayers.
God, please, I ask you to forgive my current, past, and future mistakes.
I send this letter to God in the name of Jesus Christ.
With Love, J’Silv.
(Scotland)
A man, a woman, and a child have the right to dream
I don’t need to say “no”. I don’t need to say “yes”. I don’t need to agree or disagree.
I don’t need to be assertive, to fight, struggle, pursue or have money.
I don’t need to be courageous, wise, or beautiful.
All people have the right to live in a harmonious and peaceful environment to access their inner selves and discover their mission.
I don’t need ANYTHING.
I have the right to dream.
Dreaming is my right, and fulfilling my dream is my duty.
“I want to hear my heart.
I want to cry my grief.
I want to serve God.
I want to love myself.”
I believe that before we live a dream, or when we are living a new dream in our lives, there is a "mourning/grief" that needs to be done, something from the past that needs to be left behind, or something that belongs to our personality.
(Scotland)

One second
I went up to the terrace of the hotel where I work, I joined my colleagues and laid on the floor. We contemplated the stars. I am so small here! I felt it within myself and I smiled.
Thank you, God, for this moment and for your company. God loves me, and I love God.
Feeling small reassured me. I looked at the sky, and in a second, I gave him all my dreams and I took a breath.
- May I tell you a history? I ask my friends.
“Zeus was walking through a forest and saw Callisto, with whom he fell in love.
Wanting to get closer, he altered his image in the likeness of Artemis, wife of Callisto.
Callisto recognizing Artemis in Zeus, accepted him without suspicion. They made love and had a son, Arcas.
Hera, the wife of Zeus, not enduring the betrayal, transformed Callisto into a bear, who, feeling sad and angry, began to wonder through the woods.
One day, Arcas went hunting and saw a bear (his mother), who decided to open her arms to hug him. The frightened son immediately prepared to defend himself against the bear. Zeus, fearing the worst, decided to turn Arcas into a baby bear and sent both mother and son to the sky.
Hera, enraged, sent the two to the North Pole, so they would never have rest because they would always be seen by mortals.”
[history of the constellations Ursa Major and Ursa Minor]
(Scotland)
I am responsible for my thoughts. I’m the one who gives the orders.
I am not my thoughts. They are just thoughts and they do not define me.
I am a spectator of my thoughts.
One thought can be replaced by another - I am courageous.
(MEDITOPIA APP)
When we are tormented by our thoughts, we can take a deep breath and ask ourselves, "Am I able to identify this thought?
Is it a thought of worry? Is it a thought of uncertainty? Is it a critical thought? Is it a helpful thought? Is it a thought of judgement?” (meditopia app).
(Scotland)
Kanha Shanti Vanan
Sometimes I like to sit on the floor in a meditation position, i.e. with my legs crossed and my spine straight.
I close my eyes, recognise the position of my body, breathe naturally, and say mentally:
First sentence: "I feel drawn to the divine light of my heart"
Then I wait for a while, focussing peacefully on my breathing.
After about five minutes, I mentally say the second phrase: "I immerse myself in the divine light of my heart".
I give my brain a command, and it reacts as it wishes. I don't need to imagine anything, a light, a colour, anything... I just mentalise, first one phrase and then the other phrase.
People have a tendency to consciously imagine/or mentally create ideas. In this exercise, I just order these two sentences to my brain and allow it to work freely, then if I get out of the exercise, I calmly bring my attention back to my breathing.
I don't have to force it too much; if my attention is distracted by any kind of "thought", I gently return to my breathing.
[I am responsible for my thoughts, I am in charge.
I am not my thoughts, my thoughts do not define me.
I am a spectator of my thoughts.
A thought can be replaced by another thought - I am courageus, for example].
(Scotland)
Each one of us belongs to his/her place
The world is vast… There is enough Space for everyone! (But I’m still afraid!!!)
I have always thought I was inferior to others, and I felt my place was not what I wanted, I needed or had in order to stay there forever! I felt I couldn’t evolve!
But now, looking back, I think my place was ideal! (...) But even today I feel something strange about where I am. There’s something here, I don’t know what it is. I know I’m the one who is in my place but… I feel uncomfortable. And, it seems I need to be thankful for being in my place!
That’s what I’ll do. Be grateful.
- Thank you, mom and dad, for giving me wings.
"We were born to experiment, evolve and collaborate with nature and animals" - Dr Bach.
(Scotland)
How to be grateful
I have a gratitude diary. I like having one. The one I think is best is a beautiful golden notebook.
(I divide the diary in half.)
In the first part,
I write about everything positive that happens to me and what I have as far as material things are concerned.
I may also describe my positive emotions. What did I feel on that specific moment?
In the second part,
I thank all the people who have helped me. Those random people my life story.
The ones we didn’t even notice in the moment, the invisibles.
“Now I can see all of them. Thanks.”
(Scotland)
Scotland
I’m a head housekeeper and a waitress at a hotel on the Isle of Skye, which is a stunning island in the UK, and there’s a mountain here.
It is obvious that everyone who goes to Skye climbs the mountain… but not me!
I haven’t climbed the mountain yet!!! I am afraid.
Where is the love?
I was asked where the love was! – It’s in accepting the opportunities that life gives to me!
(And I was surprised. Love? Why? I don’t love?! I thought I…!?! I immediately accepted that the person was right)
I love to eat well, I love to learn, I love to dance, I love my family, I love to paint, I love my dog, I love courtesy, I love to work, I love cleaning, I love waterfalls, I love the aurora borealis, I love the beach, and the sun, I love clothes, I love essential oils, I love crystals, I love my friends, I love to pray, I love traveling. Do I not love?! I love a lot!!! That could be it, I love a lot! Love is in the World.
The more you experience, the more you love.
Life gives us many opportunities. However, we think we are superior to what we receive, so we refuse to accept them. Other times, we act contrary, we think we are inferior and we also end up rejecting what is for us. We think we don’t deserve it.
In fact, we tend to constantly sabotage ourselves by making egoic excuses or relying on limiting beliefs. It seems like it never is for us. It’s never our time.
Where is love?
It’s living my life. Accept life! And learn from experiences.
(Scotland)
The blessing is so great that I can’t live in peace. I feel depressed!
But does pleasure hurt? Why am I hurting?
I am, because I care about other people’s opinions. So now, what do I do? I “think” the answer is yoga.
Yes, it seems the answer to my problems is yoga. It makes me understand that I can’t solve them because I don’t have a place to do yoga.
I prefer attending in-person classes.
(Scotland)
Today I went to a spa
I loved the Turkish bath, the sauna, the swimming pool, the Japanese hot bath (42°C), the steam bath, the foot bath, and the hydra walk.
I walked in icy water over rocks. My feet hurt; I could hardly stand the cold. Incidentally, I felt pain during this spa day. I suffered even when I was entering the Japanese bath despite the water being hot. But I liked it. I smiled a lot. My skin thanked me. I love taking care of myself.
I drank tea and ate fruit. At this point I tried to practice mindfulness. I was eating watermelon, and I was focusing on my teeth biting the watermelon. But, for a little while, because I was so excited, I just wanted to talk.
I think I should go to the spa at least once a week.
(Scotland)
I’d like to know what my limits are.
I think those who know their limits don’t go crazy.
Anyone who doesn’t know it is like having a neurosis.
If you know your limits and you get to a point where you know you can’t go any further, you should keep going and surpass your limits.
If you don’t know, turn back. Neuroses are “interrupted movements.”
I’m constantly interrupted! I try to act, I deliberate, but I don’t do it.
And what are my limits?
- Act according to my values.
What are my values?
I don’t know anymore. There was a man who hurt me and made me doubt my values. But something positive came out of it; I realized I have some “imperfect” values and repression.
I’m tired of living with neuroses, and also, with wrong values.
What can I do?
I feel I should practice,
- Yoga.
Bert Hellinger’s thoughts "about interrupted movements" are very interesting."
(Scotland)
Today, I remember: I’m courageous!
I read that anger destroys the liver.
So, today I must write what I feel: I’m full of rage. I’m in a state of inner uproar. I want to stomp my feet on the floor.
"I’m paralysed by fear…!"
Here’s how you can make a liver detox:
"Liver detox: lemon juice, cucumber, cabbage, and ginger." "Crush everything together and drink."
Or,
I’ll have to start an aromatherapy program to heal the emotions in my liver.
I love this girl: https://youtube.com/c/HarmonieAromatteraph
"For 90 days, put in an aromatherapy necklace a drop of sweet orange essential oil and a drop of cypress essential oil."
Or make this cream at home:
In a glass or porcelain bowl, mix 100 ml of neutral moisturizing cream, add 15 drops of sweet orange essential oil, and ten drops of cypress essential oil.
And put on the liver and abdomen region every day."
(Scotland)
Looking for good paths to achieve my goals: how can I do this?
(It’s really easy: practice yoga, practice meditation, get a job, run twice a week, love twice a week, go to the psychologist, have coffee with friends, read a book, go out every Friday night to dance! Ask how the family is doing; do volunteer work; take dance lessons; listen to classical music; play the flute; go for a walk; say “thank you”, and apologize. Smile, greet people, and do Honopono for mom and dad; pray to thank God every day. Take care of the body— skin Care, be vegetarian, write, paint. Cook. Clean the house.
This is enough for you not to fall into temptation!
It’s good to create a plan.
So, for example, if I want to go on vacation to the Algarve,
Point A is where I am: at home, lying in bed after overeating chocolate. Point B is hotel X in the Algarve. I need to know the name of the hotel.
How do I do this? I go to work!
I get a job close to home.
From point A to point B, there will be a lot of problems. People are able to sense when someone has a purpose and they don’t like that feeling. A wonderful boyfriend appears out of nowhere. Suddenly, you meet a group of wonderful friends. Don’t believe it. Focus!
No one “good” appears nowadays.
Life consists of leaving your house, working and going home.
Not to mention that you will open your mouth and say “Oh!!! I would like to go on vacation to the Algarve this summer”. In addition, a new great job opportunity arises in another professional area!
Oops, how strange that it didn’t appear before!
The path has to be basic and easy, as easy as possible, because even then, many unforeseen events will happen. You may suddenly crash your car!
Be careful, silence is the best way, and have a very easy plan to go from point A to point B.
(Scotland)
Get out of your comfort zone
Some people discover they are extraordinary, and others that they are extraordinary. “I go to paradise hoping to do something crazy. I’m living a passion! I’m going to Asia, I’m going to emigrate, I’m going on vacation! I’m going to do volunteer work! I’m going to an ashram!
It is important to remember: there is a difference between leaving your comfort zone and stepping into a dangerous situation.
Get out of your comfort zone but go with maximum protection. Protection is health. Protection is not the same as control. Don't be afraid to protect yourself.
(Scotland)
“- I have to believe in myself!”
Really?
Nooooooo! As I am human, I will always make mistakes. I'm not going to believe in myself. I only believe in God!
I pray and talk to God.
“God, what do you think about this new idea” …Or “how about that car I want to buy?”
Every day, I pray or write a letter to God or to the Universe. I talk, I show gratitude, I ask for protection and advice.
"I make plans for my life, but life has plans for me as well."
I don’t know everything.
And not everything is as it seems."
(Scotland)
(I go to a Wizard. I mean, I went to one. He doesn't meet me anymore.
People say he's the king of Wizards thanks to his massive satellite dish...
In my life, I have only met enlightened people.
Me: “ - Hello, Doctor Wizard, I have some relationship problems, and I would like to improve my self-esteem.”
Wizard: “ - I can’t help you.”
…?!
..
…???????
What!!! He said that he can’t help me?! I was disappointed and extremely surprised! How is this even possible!? The ultimate Wizard can’t help me! But he helps everyone, and he can't help me! How offensive!
Never allow yourself to feel any guilt. You are the victim, because whoever should have protected you did not. Focus on you.)
(A memory)
I’m discreet, and I love that. What no one knows, no one spoils.
The best sentences I have ever heard in my life:
“There are people whose hearts are connected to the heart of the earth.”
“The further away the better.” - The wizard told me.
(Scotland)
What's this about Tinder and social media?
This can’t help me improve my relationships.
What can I do to improve my relationships?
(Scotland)
Everyone has their limits. And you have your values. If you know you’re wrong, don’t do it.
A lot of times, other people don’t have the strength to say ‘No’. So, don't do it.
People have very difficult lives, and sometimes they are tired, scared, in financial trouble, desperate, and for these reasons they may not have the strength to say "no" to you. In other words, if you don't think your behaviour is right, don't do it. Have honour!
And remember, no one has the obligation to say ‘no’ to you.
(Scotland)
Every day when I wake up.
I am courageous,
I am abundance in God’s light,
I am abundance in God’s prosperity,
I am abundance in God’s health,
I am abundance in God’s gratitude,
I am abundance in God’s faith.
I give myself permission to make good decisions in my life,
I work honestly,
I am a mother/father to the world,
I should always walk forward, I should always look up, and I can juggle work and study successfully,
God, how can I be? God, how can I serve you?
I allow myself to be human and I accept my imperfections,
I allow myself to have a bad day,
I allow myself to take some time for myself,
I allow myself to change my mind,
I am capable,
I am my best friend,
I attract money in abundance,
I focus on my dream,
God loves me and I love God,
I believe in my inner strength,
I love public speaking, in fact the more people see and listen to me, the better,
I fall in love with myself every day,
I am responsible for everything that happens in my life,
I open my heart; express the love I feel, and receive love from others.
My project (…) will work!
I was born to be happy!
I choose to be humble,
I recognize that I have aptitudes,
If something doesn't work out, no problem, at least I have tried to make it work!
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I support everyone who has made a difficult decision today.
I bless my existence.
*While I am saying these phrases, I imagine my body emanating a brilliant golden light.
(Scotland)
How can I live my life?
I just need to breathe. And drink water.
I can either focus on the solution or I can focus on self-love, the important is to focus.
(Scotland)
Beware of handsome young people with money, both boys and girls...
They are more likely to use or humiliate you. People are bad by nature, and these people can use their money to protect themselves, while you can't. Prince Charming doesn't exist unless you are an enchanted princess which you are not! Be very careful and avoid the situation, especially if you're a teenager. People tend to abuse, and humiliate, especially when they are young. Protect your heart and your sexuality. Beware of homemade pornographic films, photos, emails. Young people are unaware of the consequences of certain acts. If you have a "young" child, protect them. It’s good to be alert.
(Scotland)
Do you know your enemy?
Yes, I know who they are.
“ - Yes!!! The liars!”
Is there anything you can do for your enemies?
“ - I can’t help my enemies.”
Is there anything you can do to protect yourself from your enemy?
“ - Yes, I will never return to the places where I suffered, and I will never speak with or be with the people who have made me suffer.”
Words have value:
When creating an email or password, use positive words.
For example,
happiness@ ... .com
Alotoflove@ ... .com
happylife!@ ... .com
Passwords like:
Prosperity
Harmony
Courage,
Gratitude
lovelove
(Scotland)
Where is the love?
Fortunately, there is no such thing as ‘the right person’.
Where have I been?
That there was no one who loved me.
I’m in Edinburgh, looking at death. I know I feel completely fragile, so I have psychological support and I’m looking for a reiki master.
I met a lady, and I went to her house, which is where she receives patients. When I stepped inside the house… I felt uncomfortable. It was decorated in dark colours; I didn’t like the place because it scared me. I felt there was energy manipulation. I reject these kinds of environments.
Luckily, I had the strength and courage to look for another reiki master. I never do that. Even after recognizing and feeling the negativity from people and places around me, I am always hesitant in accepting my intuition.
I found another master who was a good lady.
I told her about my life, and I cried.
The lady gave me a reiki session and, at the end, she told me: “The Angels are telling me that you need to go to church”. I automatically accepted the suggestion and I went!
Scotland has many closed churches. Fortunately, one near my house was open. It’s in a building, which is sort of new, with an open door on the side. I walked through that door and I find myself in a big hallway.
Two gentlemen approached me and I said: “I would like to pray in the church, please”.
They surprised me by politely replying, "Of course." And they opened another door in that same corridor.
I looked at the altar and the pews, I thanked the two gentlemen, I entered the Church, and I decided to sit at the back of the room. There, I saw a bible on one of the pews and I noticed that there were holy bibles scattered around the church.
I started crying when I sat down on the bench. And I breathed in the lap of God. While I was crying, I felt liberation since I was at peace and secure in there. When I stopped crying, I left the church.
(I reflected about it. I went to church, I cried, I gave God my remorse, God accepted it and He was waiting to hear me talk. And I, did nothing! I didn’t pray, I forgot to pray! I could have said the “Our Father” prayer! That I know by heart, but I did nothing! I had the opportunity to talk to God, thank him for my existence, ask him something, and did NOTHING!
It was the first time in my life that I felt a miracle had happened, I cried, and I never cry. I don’t feel emotions. And I left without talking to God. My cry was sudden, and it was supernatural. I left there with more regrets than when I went in.)
I would like to discover the secret of life, of healing, of evolution. What can I do to live in a soul level?
What should I do when my ego wants to punch my soul? My ego bullies me. It’s bad, and it hits me. And my soul shrinks in silence. It would be nice if my soul screamed: “Help!” so that I know where I left her. Now I can’t find her.
Then my Ego feels sad and despised by me.
The biggest fright I’ve had in my life was when, out of nowhere, I listened to a voice inside myself saying: “I committed a crime.” And I was confused! I committed a crime!? What crime? I didn’t commit any crime. It was an intense and persistent voice, and it felt like intuition to me, saying “I committed a crime, I committed a crime!”
It was the first time I left Scotland and, instead of going back to my parents’ house, I felt brave enough to be autonomous and independent, so I travelled to London.
The voice screamed inside me, “I committed a crime, I committed a crime.”
I spoke to a friend about my inner voice, and she said it was a limiting belief, not my intuition because intuition doesn’t accuse or scare anyone. She also said that I was on a good path as I was honestly fighting for my life. She said that the voice was my insecurity, telling me something was wrong.
I stayed in London and lived there for a few months. But I was always apprehensive as the voice kept saying: “I committed a crime.” What an obscure level of evil does my Ego have to make me give up on my dreams. It was a frightening feeling!
I don’t hear it now, but I know it can hurt me. It lives in hiding. I would like to listen to it again, so that I know I’m on the right path.
It’s like the story of the two wolves in the ear: the good wolf and the bad wolf. And I’m the one who chooses which wolf to listen to. I actually don’t want to listen to any of them. Thinking is already demanding, so listening to them giving me conflicting opinions doesn’t interest me.
Then I walked into my rented house in London, and the big bad wolf said: “Witchcraft.” And I thought “Oh!!! Why me?!”
My body has a life of its own as it wants to eat, sleep… but my mind?! I didn’t know it had! But it’s crazy when my mind speaks maliciously to me. (Hey!!! What is this!? Intuition!? Limited beliefs? It’s actually trauma.) Trauma is staring me in the face, Me and it, looking at each other. And I'm scared, but oddly enough I am happy too... because I've found it. You are here! I hear you!!!! Go away!
I remember having my first nightmare when I was a kid. It was about the story Little Red Riding Hood. I was sitting at the head of a very long table full of big bad wolves also sitting at the table with me, and we were waiting for the food.
I couldn’t hear my heart beating but I could hear the wolves talking! What a heartbreak!
I work as a waitress in a restaurant and London is a culturally rich capital. I also admire the power of decision of the English people. They have always been very strong and courageous, something I admire in men and women.
What is life if not a constant process of making choices and decisions?
(Scotland, England)
But now I'm more oriented towards country life... so,
Came to Netherlands!!!
I work in a big open area. It is full of pine trees, all of them tiny.
I have to look after the pines. I love them! My job is to get the weeds out of the pots of the 5000 pines that are here! Just me. Maybe there are more than 5000 pine trees. Probably. I haven't counted them.
Pines radiate energy, balance the body and soul, strengthen the nervous system, help to prolong life and they have a white aura.
Every plant, every tree, has a body, a soul and a spirit, just like a human being.
The pines need to grow a bit more to be ready for Christmas when they will be sold.
I just pray to God that they all bring the energy of love and unity to the families they will live in. And that the families don't throw them away after Christmas! They are trees, living beings! Many pine trees die of thirst and are thrown away after Christmas! What a cruelty. We bought the little pine tree just to decorate the house.
The pines love me. They inspired me! They showed me the way... what is the next step, after this summer's seasonal work!
-That's it! I would love to see the Northern Lights! I've never seen them before!!! I'm going to see if I can get a job in Northern Europe! Scandinavia, the land of the Vikings.
I love the Netherlands. I can ride my bike everywhere. Organised and practical people. There's just one problem: when we say something, they take it seriously.
One day at work at lunchtime:
"J'Silv every Friday, after work, we stay here and socialise with each other. If you want to join us, that's fine!"
I reply,
"Ahh... thank you, but I won't be able to come".
They reply, "OK!
After 10 minutes I look back at my colleagues and say:
"Oh! I would love to come."
(This kind of attitude, that in 5 minutes I suddenly change my mind... they don't understand.)
I fell
I did not like it! Even more, I take Google Maps on the phone because I do not know the way home... I haven't memorised the route. And here it's 12/17 kilometres from home to work and from work to home.
I had a fall with my bike in the water channel!
Thank God nobody saw.
Half of me went into the water, the other half stayed on land and the phone went into the water too.
Luckily, even though my phone fell into the water channel, and even though it was covered in water, it did not break.
The canal was not deep, it was as big as my arm, at least around the edges.
As I had another outfit in my backpack, I changed clothes on the street, next to an "electricity box". And then I went home.
My agency has contacts with several companies,
After the pine company,
I also worked in a nursery, taking care of the hortensias, in different colours, purple, pink, light pink, white, blue... and the bluish purple!
But of all the flowers I have seen and worked with, these are the most beautiful, the peonies.
Nowadays, I'm working in a new company, I'm putting the price tags on the potted plants! I just do it - I put labels on.
Something happened that I had never experienced before.
The agency where I work provided accommodation for the workers, but here I am 'forced' to share a room with another woman. "All right, I accept! It's OK!"
When I arrived at the staff house, the other colleague was dressed as a boy and had short hair "like a man". After meeting her, I automatically asked to change the staff house because she was dressed as a man and not as a woman like me. The agency workers moved me out of the staff house.
However,
I received looks from my colleagues who found it homophobic.
My physical body speaks to me, communicates with me. I feel it. If it doesn't feel comfortable undressing me in front of a stranger dressed as a man, I have to respect that. I'm not going to force myself. That would be disrespectful.
I cannot be forced to share my room with a person who identifies and presents himself as a man, because I am a woman.
It is important to note that this situation was an isolated case of having to share a room. I did not reject this colleague on a work project or at a meal table.
(Netherlands)
I lost the key!
I lost the key!
I have lost the key to the staff house.
The key to the staff house has a key ring with the address of the staff house on it!!!
(OK, tomorrow I'll go to the shops I've been to and look for the key... Have a look! )
The next day,
(Someone stole my bike last night! OK, today I'll buy another bike!)
(Netherlands)
Finland - Winter Season
The Sami, also known as Laplanders,
are the only indigenous people living in Europe. They live in the Lapland region - Finland, Norway, Sweden and Russia. They live from fishing, hunting and reindeer herding.
Lapland.
The best colleagues I've ever had and the best living conditions.
The resort is huge and wonderful!
It has a huge art gallery! a planetarium, various activities, wild reindeer, reindeer safaris... husky safaris, cross-country skiing, glass igloos, the polar night, the aurora borealis. Santa Claus! Art everywhere.
Wooden cabins, privacy, peace, snow.
It's beautiful. One of the most beautiful places I've ever been.
I live in my first apartment
I sit at the dining table and I play the flute - the song from Aladdin that i found on the internet. In fact, I'm not very good at music, even with practise, I can't play it well. However, one day, I played a musical instrument, and I did it! When I finished, I felt really happy, and I applauded myself for about 2 to 3 seconds for doing it. I went back to being a kid, that is, I was genuine, and the feeling was great.
Now, when I do something well, I praise myself, even if it's on purpose. It’s good for me to recognize my achievements.
Since then, when I play Aladdin’s music, I begin feeling totally fine but, in the middle of the song, I feel something strange, I lose focus, and I panic. My attentive mind suddenly wonders and I abstract from the music. I stop, look around, and ask:
“Why do I feel unsafe playing the song? No one rang the doorbell, my house is intact, and I’m fine.”
The act of playing the flute reminds me that there are moments to speak and others to listen when I communicate. Between speaking and listening, I breathe.
All I need is to breathe.
(Finland)
Around me, it's just pure white crystal snow.
While I was going up the stairs to the first floor, because I live on the first floor, I noticed that snow had accumulated on the left side, and I could see a small snowflake with my own eyes. It was so beautiful! I was amazed and hypnotized with what I was seeing! I couldn’t believe they were real and that I got to see them!
Even alone, far away, in the dark and cold, God surprises with his greatness.
I don’t like to talk on the cell phone, and it is even worse if it’s a video call.
I feel like I’m talking to death.
I've got an idea, I'm going to sign up for an online course.
(Finland)
Nice to know!!!
· You are courageous just because you exist.
· Not everything is as it seems.
· You don’t know everything.
· When greeting others, tilt your head slightly to the right.
When speaking with someone, never tilt your head to the floor as this is a sign of submission. (Unless you are in the presence of an authority, like a teacher; your parents; important people from your country, such as presidents and prime ministers; representatives of the countries; or God.)
People with “great energetic power” - manipulative and narcissistic people, can have you in their “hands” just by you doing this movement. Be careful! Words are valuable and so are gestures.
· Work, that is, don’t depend on anyone monetarily. Don't depend on your parents or your husband.
· Never mix family, colleagues, friends and neighbours. Life itself is already urging you to do so, but you should never do it.
· Never reveal your dreams.
· Never underestimate anything or anyone, and don’t underestimate your work.
· Read a book.
· Reflect: “Why did this happen?” Reflecting entails asking why.
· We have tastes and interests, so we have to learn to ask. Request God’s guidance, or ask your inner child/Higher Self.
· Pray every day.
· Be grateful.
· Never cross your legs or arms, unless you’re talking to a toxic person.
· Take a shower as fast as possible.
· When talking to friends, don’t just talk about tragic news or woes, talk about good things too.
· Don't express your thoughts/opinions, silence has never hurt anyone.
· Do not reveal your salary to anyone.
. If you want to be forgiven, you have to forgive.
· At work and at dinner, don’t talk about politics, football or religion.
· Never speak badly of your family to anyone.
(If you feel the need to talk badly about your family to someone, try to avoid it. Instead write a letter to God telling Him how you feel, and also talk to a psychologist). We shouldn’t expose our family life to anyone.
· Avoid wearing dark colours, that is, wear light coloured clothing. (Light clothes repel negativity.)
· If you feel it’s wrong, do not do it. No one in the world needs to have the courage and strength to say to you NO or STOP.
· Be kind to yourself, don’t hurt yourself. If you feel like harming yourself, beating yourself up, urgently seek psychological support. Find a Bach flower essence therapist, and take up dance classes (which are beneficial to improve body expression). *It is just my opinion.
· Stay away from negative people and places. If you only hang out with drug addicts and people who don't produce anything in life, change your group of friends. Sign up for a volunteer programme in your area. It's a way of evolving. Nobody evolves around drug addicts or people who like to hurt and steal.
· Work out.
· When you don’t want to be with someone sexually, tell them “I don’t want to” and walk away. You can say no, it’s your right. No one is obligated to be with another person sexually if they don’t want to, even if they are blackmailed. If you feel like you have always had problems with your sexuality, and strange situations have happened in this area of your life, ask a psychologist for help. Even if you feel that you are not comfortable with your sexuality, talk to a psychologist. Body expression classes like dance and yoga can help you. *This is just my opinion. This is a very sensitive subject. Our sexuality is meant to be lived with the person we love. Nowadays sex is lived in such a perverse way. People are together without making love. It is obscene. If you don't love anyone, strengthen your self-love, take care of yourself. Don't get involved sexually unless it's for something "serious"!
Sex is to be lived when there is romance, passion, love, something you can see a future for. Something that will enrich your life.
Don't waste your energy on weak sexual attractions.
In the world we live in, there are more arranged marriages than love marriages! This is totally dysfunctional. Get out of this pattern of sexual perversity and prostitution! Get help! We must be humble and ask for help when we're in pain. We can't allow future generations to live like this. We must all be brave enough to heal ourselves sexually. Psychiatrists, psychologists, systemic family constellations. These are therapies that I believe can help!
We can only educate future generations by leading by example.
In my great-grandmother's generation, people were forced to marry. With this knowledge, it's important that we get to know our emotions and feelings. Because they exist. Love exists.
I swear I don't understand it, and knowing the crazy way love relationships are still lived in the world... And to know that the purpose of human beings is to evolve! Who thought that Tinder was a good idea for human evolution? What a disgusting mentality.
· Visit your doctor for a blood test; your dentist and ophthalmologist; your genecologist and dermatologist; and your nutritionist.
· There is no freedom in ignorance.
· Be discreet, don’t expose yourself unnecessarily, and avoid social media.
· Do therapy.
· Go to a medium.
· Start learning Reiki (first and second levels are important) .
· Attend a university/professional course, instruct yourself.
· Don’t tell your friends secrets you don’t want your enemies to know.
· Walk with your back straight.
· Speak slowly - it is very difficult.
· Wear clean and tidy clothes,
· Take care of your nails, hands and feet.
· Wax and shave.
. Adult bullying is a thing. When you feel that you are being bullied, don’t despise your intuition, automatically run away from the situation. Automatically consult a psychologist and a medium. Ask for help. Talk with your family. You are worth it! It is impossible to have a harmonious relationship with psychopaths, narcissists or sociopaths.
· If you live in a neighbourhood where there is a psychopath or a paedophile, MOVE quickly. Protect yourself as well as your children. These people cannot be ‘healed’, they will hurt you.
· Don’t use drugs.
· If you have sex workers, mentally hill people, drug addicts, narcissists, or psychopaths in your family, don’t try to help them, that’s the doctor’s job, not yours. Your job “is to study, work, buy a house, practice yoga, take care and educate your children, pray, and fulfil your dreams…”
· If your spouse is hurting you (making fun of you in front of your children or friends or family), ask for couples therapy (apparently it is common to make a joke about the husband or wife in front of the children or socially... people like to make jokes about each other). But this is dysfunctional! And it is not a healthy attitude. Constantly making fun of other people, or throwing shade, is not very normal, in fact it's the attitude of an unbalanced person. If you're like that, go to a psychologist and tell them, "I like to make fun of other people, and I feel really good when I do it.
I'm talking about the person who always makes fun of other people, the person who enjoys humiliating others. Making fun of someone once a month is one thing, making fun of them 20 times a month is another . It is very common in families: for the brother to joke about his sister because they think it is very funny, or the husband to joke about his wife because they think it is very funny. Just so you know, it's not funny.
Bullies should try to be nice. You’ll be much happy in life if you are a nice guy rather than a jerk. I promise you! Try to be that person who impresses people by being nice, try to be “the empathy fairy”, the friendly, kind, cheerful person who helps others. I believe that what we give, we get back, but in fact, we only control what we give to others. We control the effort and not the result.
As human beings, we are prone to making mistakes by default. And just because of that, we will already face terrible consequences. Now, if you are going to make mistakes on purpose (for example, be a bully), this means that you are either stupid or ignorant! Be careful!
“Be smart! You don't know what the future brings.” What we give, we receive in return. Watch out!
Do you want to find a woman who loves you?
- Be a good person!
Would you like to have a good job?
- Be a good person.
Do you always want to have money for your needs?
- Be a good person!
Would you like to have healthy kids and watch them grow?
- Be a good person.
Always try to be good and stay away from those who are evil or victims of evil.
Victims attract bad luck to themselves. When a “normal person” is close to a victim, they harm the victim without realizing it. Subsequently, the “normal person” will face possible consequences.
When we're around victims, we do dreadful things, and we don't even notice. So, beware of victims.
My advice for victims:
I've always lived a little bit in the place of victim, and this helped me.
Being in the place of a victim does not only mean suffering from bulling, but from never getting help when I need it, from not always having some of my needs met, from missing opportunities, from a lot of “bad luck”... from being in the wrong place at the wrong time...
- Do Bach Flower Remedies (check on *Skin care. Bach Flowers such as Larch, Star of Bethlehem and Centaury are great for self-love).
- Do Volunteer work, join an animal aid institution (free), help the homeless (free), kids, volunteer on farms. Focus on what is best for you, and improve who you are - wwoof website (it is free to volunteer on farms), or do four months of international volunteering work with children to help to change your dysfunctional pattern of victimisation. “Without charity there is no salvation!”
Body expression classes like dancing,
Martial arts classes are healthy.
Consult a psychologist (at least during three months) and a medium (At least once).
Flushing baths Every Thursday, I have a salt and "rosemary tea" bath. A salt bath clears negativity, and rosemary baths bring joy and happiness to life.
Every 15 days: Salt and Apple Vinegar Bath - Clears all negative energy (Cheap). (Check on *Skin care)
Always wear an amethyst crystal and a black tourmaline in your backpack. (Cheap)
Write the gratitude diary. (Cheap)
Pray to God. Do the self-therapy of the 4 letters to God (*check on Open my Horizons)
Bert Hellinger Therapy.
Get away from the person or situation that hurts you.
(Neither Bach flowers nor volunteer work are a substitute for a proper psychological treatment, obviously).
(This is a blog in which I share my personal opinion.)
To the bullies:
If you are a person with a constant desire to do evil, you may really need to consult with a psychologist, and a medium.
Try the Bach Florals remedies
1 - Six drops of Star of Bethlehem Bach Remedy in the morning on waking and six drops at bedtime before going to sleep, until the bottle is finished.
2 - Six drops of Holly Bach Remedy in the morning on waking and six drops at bedtime before going to sleep, until the bottle finished.
3 - Six drops of Cherry Plum Remedy in the morning on waking, and six drops at bedtime before going to sleep, until the bottle is finished.)
And body expression classes such as dance.
Write a gratitude diary.
Pray to God. Do the self-therapy of the 4 letters to God (*check on Open my Horizons)
Bert Hellinger Therapy.
Go to a Psychologist and Medium.
· Keep in mind that groups of more than seven members are not cohesive and tend do get divided into smaller groups of people.
· Don’t put others down.
· Keep your room tidy and clean.
· Life is a rollercoaster, today you are at the top, tomorrow you are at the bottom, so remain humble.
· Once a week, light a candle to energize your Guardian Angel.
· Life has plans for us, and we have plans for life.
· Instead of wanting surprises to happen in your life, get out of your comfort zone.
· When you don’t know, ask.
· When you don’t know what to do, make a prayer.
· If you are afraid, go for a run, don’t buy a dog.
· Believe things will improve! You have the right to be happy! Every morning tell yourself “ I will be happy today!”
· It is your right to say “no” or “yes”. It’s not a duty.
· Everyone has access to healing and education, not just the elite.
· Never ask a doctor, a judge, a medium, a politician, or a lawyer for something for free. They can/will abuse you. Be careful! You always need to pay these people. Because if you do not, you pay with your life. Even if they tell you “Oh, it’s okay. I can help you for free!!!” Do not trust them. Don’t try to get close to these people, protect yourself.
. Respect people's work. We should be paid for our work. Don't think that people have to work for you for free.
· Words are valuable.
· Sometimes we have to be patient.
· Avoid receiving a disciplinary process or calling the police, in the workplace.
· If someone hurts you in life, never smile at that person again. Look them in the eye and show no emotion, especially at work. Have no fear.
· It's okay not to like a person, but it’s not ok to dislike half the world.
· Humour doesn’t mean humiliating others.
· Sometimes we win, sometimes we lose. When we lose, we are not victims! We are losers.
And it's normal to lose in life. You are not a different person if you lose in life. Everybody loses. I know it hurts and hurts when it happens. But we have to try, even if we may end up losing! Try to always be discreet in life, so, when you're a big loser, no one knows who you are! And you won't feel so ashamed.
(Finland)
If our parents gave us a name, we should use it. We should not be addressed by nicknames in order to honour and respect those who gave us life.
About time
I suggest three months minimum to change a behaviour/ thought pattern.
(Three months in an ashram in India, three months consulting a psychologist, three months doing international volunteer work, three months taking piano lessons, three months of workouts…)
Wait up to 72 hours for an answer. If you don’t receive an answer in 72 hours, it’s because they reject you (unless the other person has lost their cell phone or computer, is on vacation, or is sick, that is, they have some credible justification).
You can start again at any time.
In love relationship, date someone 5 to 7 years younger or older than you. (just because you might have more in common).
(Finland)
"I deserve to be loved for who I am, which means I don't have to struggle to deserve love.”
(The first time I held My dog, I felt love (but not imprisonment) towards him.
It was a different feeling I had never felt before.
Animal Love is pure, free and unconditional, summing up, it is a courageous love.
It’s a love that recognizes that he’s a dog and I’m a person, that is, a fraternal love.
I love playing with the stick, and he does too. He was so happy with his paws walking around excitedly waiting for me to throw the stick so that he could start running.
You can see such a joy on his face! On that day, the world received love in the heart. My God, he is powerful. He can bring joy, motivation, strength, desire!
I like to praise my dog so that he can always remember that he is good. I tell him he is the expression of light on earth, he is the fairy of empathy, who was born with the mission of teaching humans how to love!
And he looks at me and he barks at me, he barks at people, he is aggressive towards other dogs. He’s ordinary, and rude! He goes to the window to bark at the neighbours. All people and animals on Earth seem to be born with a veil of oblivion. But we've all come to earth to love. )
(A memory)
I feel like no one is going to save me, and I’m going to need help. I’m afraid. No one will be there!!!!!
Well, one person will be there!
ME.
My teas!
I try to drink at least two different ones a day, one in the morning and one in the afternoon in my workplace. Chamomile tea is just taken at night.
It is important to bear in mind that tea is medicine. Pregnant women and people with health issues should ask their doctor if they can drink certain types of tea.
“Red fruit tea:
I love its fragrance.
This tea accelerates the metabolism and improves digestion.
Green tea:
Since it contains antioxidants, it helps prevent some types of cancer. It strengthens the immune system, and it has a diuretic effect, that is, it helps eliminate excessive body fluid which reduces swelling and helps with weight loss. It regulates blood sugar levels, and it can prevent Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s. It contains caffeine.
Chamomile tea:
It helps you relax, improves your sleep quality and digestion.
Artichoke Tea:
It helps maintain your liver healthy, it has anti-inflammatory and antioxidant effects, it prevents premature aging of the skin, it controls cholesterol, and it reduces blood pressure.
Horsetail Tea:
It removes fat plaques and improves blood circulation.
Rosemary tea is good for the heart.
Ginger tea: It’s good for the stomach.
Boldo tea: It is used for improving poor digestion, gastritis and intestinal strains.
Peppermint tea: It helps relieve irritable bowel symptoms.
(Finland)
Where is the love?
Is what I am doing in my life OK? Sometimes I get it right, sometimes I get it wrong, sometimes I do nothing. I lose, I win and I feel joy and I feel guilt. But in the end, what's important is how I treat myself after each chapter of my life.
“Love is always the answer.”
(Finland)
Vitamin Supplements:
Royal Jelly: “Super food, the “superior” Honey of the Queen Bee.
It strengthens immunity, improves skin and hair health, fights depression and memory loss, and improves libido. It has anti-inflammatory, antibacterial and healing properties. It contains sugar (glucose and fructose), proteins (15 – 18%), fats ( 3 - 7%, 10 HDA), B vitamins, and minerals: zinc, sulphur, iron, magnesium and copper. It reduces physical and mental fatigue, and it lessens PMS symptoms.”
Moringa Oleifera.
4 almonds a day and a Brazil nut.
(Finland)
Does "distance" heal?
I have always heard that time heals all wounds, and it brings answers. What about distance? Does it heal and bring answers? Since I am an emigrant, have I been healing my soul without realizing it?!
"The further away, the better", the Wizard told me. Could it be true?
Be diplomatic
“In the old days people argued, now they kill each other."
If someone bothers you, don't react immediately. After a while, when you are calm and the other person is too, tell them what you disagree with.
Say to “the person”: "I felt uncomfortable with your attitude" (and then say which one).
If the other person doesn't understand, it's not your problem.
(That's how it's done! I know you're right, but the important thing is not to win the argument, but to end the situation in the best possible way.
However, we can always work on being more patient, resilient and forgiving).
I choose to be humble.
Forgiveness
I know that God forgives everything, but humans don't have that ability. This means that if I treat someone badly, even if they want to forgive me, they may not be able to.
People have their own human limitations.
I've learnt that I need to 'repent' for the harmful attitudes I've had.
1. Questioning myself: "- Have I acted correctly?"
When I look at my past: "What harmful attitudes have I had towards others and myself? "Have I been responsible?
2. And then: I talk to myself, recognise... admit! "I regret my attitude! I know I wasn't good. I forgive myself for not having a healthy attitude. I'm sorry.”
(Finland)
Letter to God
Hello God,
I love you so much. Today was my day off and the weather was fine. I always work in "winter countries". I don't like it.
I went for a walk in the street and it was amazing. Last night I went out to a pub. I really enjoyed it. I like to dance. I don't like to drink alcohol though, I feel good sober. I just wanted to dance. I loved the company. I went with my colleagues who kindly invited me. How lucky I am!
There is a shop in the area that sells a beautiful padded jacket that I would love to buy. But it's too expensive!
By the way... I've been thinking about something lately!
I want to go to an ashram in India!!! I want to! I've seen some online and I thought one was really nice. Please...
What do you think?
Thank you for helping me to step out of my comfort zone. I love it. I'm in Lapland!!! I saw a snowflake!
God, thank you for my job, which has accommodation for the staff. I can save money. And I'm staying with colleagues I really like.
But unfortunately not everything in my life is good.
You know it's hard for me not to have my family around me, so thank you for giving me strength and a job that allows me to live my life. I know you care about me. But I have to tell you that there are moments when it's hard. I feel sad.
I want you to help me to grow up, to be an adult, to be responsible or just to be.
I thought...
I have never reflected on my attitudes, but I have read somewhere or been told that we should do this to learn from our mistakes. I think this exercise could help me.
For me, reflecting means putting my hands on my chest and asking "why? Reflection is acting like a child and asking "why? I used to think that reflecting was asking what I had learned from a situation. Sometimes there's nothing to learn from a situation or from people, so the right thing to do is to ask:
Why was my relationship with 'this man' so destructive?
Why do I feel “lost” in my life? Why do i feel so lonely?
When I ask myself these questions, only one comes to mind:
"Where is the love?"
(!!!???)
Love is in the sentence I say to myself, "I am courageous!"
God, how can I develop my courage?
By the way, I have already fulfilled some of my dreams.
I have seen the Northern Lights, worked with plants and loved it! I have already had a leadership role at work when I was head housekeeper in a hotel in Scotland; I have reached the 3rd level of Reiki; I am financially independent; I have already embraced meeting new people and I feel blessed by the opportunities life has given me to work, learn and have fun.
I have paid for my holiday. I have a harmonious and healthy relationship with my family. Everything is a miracle! I thank all the people who have helped me make my dreams come true and who have always protected me.
Acknowledging that I have fulfilled some of my dreams is a great victory for me! I am able to recognise that I have done it!
God, bless my guardian angel, my family and my work.
God bless all the people who had to make a difficult decision in their lives today. I am with them.
God, please forgive me for my present, past and future mistakes.
I thank You.
I send this letter to God in the name of Jesus Christ.
With love,
J’Silv.
(Finland)
The bartender
I have just left work and come home. I've already had my shower, applied all the moisturisers and oils to my skin, and I'm going to the resort bar for my tea!
Hello J’Silv, how are you? - asked my colleague from the bar.
I'm fine and you?
It's a bit quiet today, what would you like to drink? - he asked me.
I'd like camomile tea, please.
(He creates bad karma by selling poison to people every day! He only works with alcoholic drinks and makes people drunk!
Well, maybe this is extremist thinking.)
You're glowing! - He told me.
Yes, I like to put my essential oils on my face before I go to bed. - I replied.
And we talked for a while.
I really enjoy talking to him, but that's all it is, talking to him.
(Finland)
I have to stop
I have to admit that I never dreamed of this life as an immigrant. It's good.
What a peace, I can see people, know them, hear them.
But...
The Portuguese have always been emigrants. I see forced emigration as a dysfunctional pattern of a people that needs to be cured. I don't know...
Families are always separated, there are always people missing! Families are the basis of society, how will Portugal develop with "absent" families?
"It is missing fulfill Portugal”. Said one of our great geniuses - Fernando Pessoa.
How can this happen without the Portuguese?
It's sad.
“Being an emigrant means being alone,
It's being grateful for a simple invitation for coffee from a colleague,
It's to be afraid, even when you show greatness and courage.
It's a complete devotion to pray.
Being an emigrant means being surprised,
It's getting to know personalities,
Often I don't even know the person, nor his life story, I only know his dreams. And that's enough for me to feel integrated.
Being an emigrant means feeling the soul of the heart,
To travel through nature,
"I don't even know what snow is,
or the northern lights,
and in winter there is no sun,
And it seems that the moon doesn't even come in the summer."
What an amazing world!
And I'm very happy to see snow, but only for a few weeks, then it's a nuisance!
To be an emigrant is to have crises and sorrows,
and not even knowing where they come from.
It's being strange and rude,
To be an immigrant is to be real.
You can't pretend to be something you're not.
It is a process of rebuilding and learning.
It's getting better.
It's being humble and realising that I don't know!
And to recognise that, there are people who are better than me, with better educations, and much better cultures and philosophies of life! From better countries than mine!
They even have better families than me, and are better daughters than me!
To be an emigrant is to confess your ignorance and weakness to God.
And ask for healing.
To be an emigrant is to be profound,
It doesn't look like it, but it is.
We don't look like much,
and we really aren't,
We just feel the maximum madness that life can offer.
And it is amazing.
But the best of being an emigrant is becoming a mum to the world."
J’Silv
Right now! Is it a good idea to go to an ashram? I have to ask the Wizard.
But I'm not in the country, and even if I were, he wouldn't help me!
Ah! I know! I'll use social media to get in touch with one of his students.
The Wizard has a small group of students, “his disciples”. Anyway, they're as peculiar as he is.
I found one of his students and added her. I sent her a message!
"Hi, how are you? I hope you are well! I would appreciate it if you would send this message to your “Professor Doctor Wizard”. Please.
"I'm thinking of going to an Asharam in Asia for a while, what do you think?"
Answer:
"I don't see any problem in going to an ashram for a while."
Then his disciple wanted to give her opinion.
"You are doing well, keep going!"
Today is my day off
and the weather is bad.
I cleaned the house. I went to the supermarket.
I soaked my hair in rosemary tea and made a homemade mask for my face and hands. My hands are very dry. Then I had a shower! I ate chips!
Robert Rey plastic surgeon - My face mask is to mix the ingredients in a bowl:
2 tablespoons of oatmeal,
hot water
1 spoon of yoghurt,
Half an orange,
1 egg white,
1 spoon of cocoa,
Two tablespoons of avocado,
1 dessert spoon of honey,
Half a coffee spoon of yeast,
a tea bag of camomile (I cut the bag and take out the dried camomile leaves)
After washing my face well, I put this mixture on my face and leave it on for about 10 minutes. I also put it in my hands.
Tonight I worked in the restaurant.
The restaurant has lots of candles, every table has a white candle, and there are also some huge candles in the fireplace.
The restaurant has a big stone fireplace. Around the fireplace are several Santa Claus elves, who are very scary looking. They have lots of dark fur on their faces and bodies. They look like ugly elf bears. They are scattered around the fireplace. My bosses love art, even Santa's elves have a different design - but an ugly one!
As I lit the candles, I thought of an intention. Candles have power. I'd go around the restaurant with a lighter in my hand and light the candles, one I'd give the intention of purification, the other candle the intention of forgiveness, the other candle, healing.
In short, there are so many intentions i can give to a candle,
Prayer, Faith, Self-Love, Affection, Learning, Respect, Solidarity, Evolution, Harmony, Inner Peace, Prosperity, Success, Respect, Joy, Fun, Strength, Courage, Responsibility.
Every candle has the power to radiate energy and it radiates the energy we ask of it.
The candles here are white. I like white candles. Even when I buy them for myself, they're always white.
I always look at the colour of the candles. I never buy black candles. The colours of the candles also give energy. Black candles are very negative.
But I've been told that the world has a very dense energy at this time and you shouldn't light candles! Any candle lit is enough to attract a witchcraft work.
Only highly evolved people - people with very good hearts, can light candles. As soon as ordinary mortals light a candle, they attract all kinds of spirits! That's because the energy vibration level of mortals is mediocre, and that's what they attract - mediocrity.
The world has a very dense energy these days! I'm scared!
(Finland)
It's minus 11 outside.
It's not snowing! Great day for a run!
(Finland)

Where is the love?
Love is in communication.
(Finland)
Letter To God
For my family:
"My God, I pray with all my heart that you will always let them achieve their dreams and give them a healthy live to enjoy them.
Thank you, My Lord!"
It is in the name of Jesus Christ that I send this letter to God.
J’Silv.
(Finland)
Letter to God
Dear God, I love you very much,
I thank you for your existence and I can say that nature has surprised me.
God, I keep thinking, "Where is the love?"
150 years ago nobody knew that we could all learn to read and write! It was thought that only very intelligent people could do that.
Is it the same with love?
Haven't we humans discovered that we can all love and be loved?
By the way, being courageous means doing good in the world!
in other words, collaborating with others.
What about emigration?
Should I deny my origins? Will I spoil the culture and traditions of this people, if I continue to act Portuguese, because that's what I am, Portuguese! And I am proud of it! I don't want to negatively influence the culture of the countries that welcomed me to work.
Well, in truth... I don't think I'm hurting anyone by being 'me' or destroying the culture of these people. I'm only hurting myself if I don't take this opportunity to evolve with them.
God, how can the Portuguese cure this dysfunctional pattern of emigration?! I'm tired of being an emigrant!
God, I love you very much. Forgive me for my faults , from the past and from the future.
Bless me and give me wisdom. May I be strong with the strong people and weak with the weak people.
Help me to be tolerant and to respect differences. I still have a lot of trouble respecting the differences between people.
God, I think my colleague - the bartender - is handsome. Now what? What do I do now?
It is in the name of Jesus Christ that I send this letter to God.
J’Silv.
(Finland)